Tuesday, July 18, 2006
..and finally she's free
..(cont -trapped, the pain)
and i saw a tear fell from her eyes as she walk away..
~*~
she is slowly fading, her body is slowly giving up, i can tell just by the look of her eyes. no, she doesn't wanna let the people know nor does she wanted them to see. she hides it, deep underneath her soul. she continues to live her life as if nothing's wrong. but we both know, sooner rather than later, it'll come to an end.
and as time goes by, i can feel that something's wrong. something's aint right. the moment she talked to me, the way she looked at me, the questions she left me with answers ive been trying to find. she left me hanging, with doubt not only in my mind but also in my heart.
i tried not to think of her, to leave her side for a while, just for once. i tried, and yet i failed.
i could feel no sadness nor pain. i became numb. no more tears will fall from my eyes. lil did i know that all of these are merely illusions and fallacy, an act of denial and refusal to open my eyes in reality. the pain is still there, the doubt and the fear. ohh and yes, fear...fear of facing the things i don't even know, fear of the future and what's yet to come.
her end is near, i can feel the breeze of death coming her way.
once again, for the last time, she looks at me as if pleading for help. no, she aint pleading for help, she looks at me with pity, with great compassion and sympathy. more doubts filled my mind. i wanted to reach her, to touch her, to hold her close to me. but as soon as i came face to face with her and tried to touch her face, i stopped.
why stop now? you've already come this far, why don't you carry on?
so i continue... she smiled at me with peace in her eyes as she started to fade away. as her silhouette almost left me, something behind her became clear. and i saw those eyes, her eyes...those deep eyes. then suddenly, i looked at her for the last time, she still smiles and yet i saw a tear fell from her peaceful eyes as she completely walk away.
and i suddenly realized what's behind her. a mirror... my mind became clear and finally, i understand. fears ive been trying to hide from my deepest soul burst out like wild fire. and i saw her more clearly this time...ohh no, i saw myself more clearly this time.. no more questions left in my mind. answers are just right in front of me all along ...and finally she's free.
~*~
-the end
posted by fllnngl1225 @ 10:42 PM
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